The truth is...

Every time I have a chance at love (or something that way) I just mess it up and give up "being interesting" or I just don't put any real effort in it. But, probably it's just because it hasn't been right, not a person worth my effort or my full attention, otherwise I would have tried. This maybe sounds dumb or even desperate in some ears, but I want a boyfriend I can love, be loyal to and so on, but then again I'm not looking for anything or anyone right now, not actively. I'm just living my life, going forward and seeing if something worth stopping for comes along. That sounds so silly, but really I believe there is a "right one" for everyone, someone you can be comfortable with and someone you can trust and love to 100 % despite yours and his faults, even if it's just for a couple of months, half a year, some years or the rest of your lives, the right one is worth waiting for. Remember that. Honestly I don't even know how to be with a guy, I'm just so used to being by myself, but then again people adjust faster than they believe they could. I guess I have to give it a shot sometime.

I have lots of things to be happy for right now and I'm going to continue going forward as long as it feels good. This is going to be a HAPPY year so I better start right now on fulfilling my dreams and goals, since another year goes by so fast...